Friday, November 30, 2007

Life Experiences

When conundrum hits you like an oncoming truck in the middle of the night you’re flung far away from reality till all you want to do is just lay dead. Let the pain slowly become darkness that overwhelms you and all is over. If only it were that simple, life wouldn’t be a slow and sometimes painful learning curve.

Each day we wake up to a different new day. As we work methodically throughout the day, we always have a hope of getting somewhere or doing something that makes the day worthwhile. It can be life simple pleasures of having a home cooked meal to a sudden surprise of finding mysterious presents that we’ve been longing for. A day can also start with pleasant surprises or we find them as we go along. A little rain or cloudy weather might cheer someone up while sunshine and the feel of the warmth brings a smile to another person’s face. But when a normal routine day ends with a debacle and catches you with surprise, do you take it with stride and let it be another learning point in life or do you let it take over your life? These are questions that plague every individual at times. Part of you wishes to just take it in, learn from it and let go while the other part of you wants to just let it consume your life. At times little grievances like these can actually open your eyes and wake you from your slumber of peaceful and quiet life. You learn that anything is possible and nothing can shield you from the possibilities in life, whether good or bad.
Life continue to surprise us and we mature along the way.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

New pair of eyes

New pair of eyes. That is what I initially thought what it would be when I place the contact lens into my eyes. Ok. I’ll admit that I’m vain enough to get one pair but only for the one month period. I contemplated whether I should go half blind to my wedding dinner next month but in the end, I decided I’d better not. The thought of knocking into chairs or even walking into a pillar does not seem a very happy moment, though classic in the years to come so, I got the lenses yesterday.


I’ve been vainer during my college days, trying out contact lenses then, but I just couldn’t stand the alien feeling of something in my eyes. Each time I blink I get irritated by the feeling that I had to practically sit on my hands from tearing my eyes out. It was that bad for me, the discomfort, and the red, dry eyes. All for the sake of being pretty or whatever that was during that time. But thank God as I matured, I decided, I’d rather take comfort above anything. No amount of persuasion from friends or when my fiancée got his years back did sway me from my decision, not until last night.

So basically, this morning, I took a longer time getting prepared for work. Normally it’s just the usual 1,2,3 step for facial after brushing my teeth, running a comb through my hair and I’m out. These days, I even got lazier or more of I’m not even bothered to put on any make up. Don’t ask me why but somehow I’m in no mood for making up. It’s a painstaking process and I’ve never had a knack for that. So, since it was a first time for contact, I decided to make the effort to put on slight bit of make up.

As I’m typing away this entry, I’m furiously blinking my eyes hoping to God that the uncle sitting opposite me doesn’t think that I’m coming on to him. It is still a tad bit uncomfortable but not as what it used to feel like. Probably technology has evolved and made the lenses more bearable, either that or I’m trying to convince myself that it really isn’t when it actually is. Oh, I just don’t know. It’s just 3 weeks away, so I’ll just grin and bear with it till it’s over.

Friday, November 23, 2007

Tired, grumpy, losing faith, you name it, I have it.

This is basically what I've felt for the past week I've been absent from the blogging scene. Terribly sorry to my dear friends who read this page frequently. I feel that, there's no point for me to write something just for the sake of doing it.

Why those feelings you might ask, well I guess many of you have been catching up on all the political hoo hah in the national papers about the different election parties, all fighting for this and that, doing all sorts of things that only one word can describe, plain childish, cowardly acts. Going to the extent of using the police force just because they can. You get the drift. I won't elaborate further. I don't feel I need to give further "advertisement" space for them in my blog. Firstly they don't deserve it and secondly I do not want to teach them to be smart. What for? Let them continue being stupid if they want. At least I can laugh at them for being stupid. Isn't that great and mean at the same time. Makes me feel so much better. So that's where I'm losing faith, in the government itself. There I said it.


Tired and grumpy is more of because I'm losing sleep worrying about the last minute wedding details and also about what I have to do for work. It's a real challenge in my work place especially when you have bloody stubborn people that practically won't move an inch, what more to say a small millimetre. So, when things get stuck at the mule's section, (bear in mind that this uncle has been there for dinasour years so I can pardon him for that small detail) but what pisses me off the most, is when he begins to take sides especially sides that does not belong to the organisation. Take for example, he works in company A and we engage company C to help us in certain projects. The mule practically just opens his mouth and agrees with anything company C says. HELLO??!! I thought you were working for company A??!!! Anyway, everything has a chain reaction. So when the mule doesn't moves his ass, most of the things gets stuck so sleepless nights are in for me.


Hence the title you name it, I have it. So much for the massages. Well, at least that's the bright part of the week for me, something to look forward to, to help me de-stress. Have a great weekend!!!

Thursday, November 8, 2007

Of stress and small little luxuries

Such wonderful bliss. Absoutely paradise to have someone paying so much attention to you. I'm talking about my massage. Recently I went for a complimentary massage at one of those spa centres and they happened to have a promotion on their packages. Ok, I'm not those rich tai tai out there who go for their monthly facials or manicure and pedicure or such but a massage don't really qualifies me for a high maintenance girl, nor a rich tai tai right? I guess it's a norm for nowadays working girls to actually have these kind of luxuries compared to our mother's time. You don't hear them talking about going for massages or manicures per say. Well, then again, during their time, where do you actually see them working their asses off at the office till 10pm or 11pm most the days huh? Back to the topic of small little luxuries.

I'm never one to easily succumb to sweet talking especially those salesmen that walk up to your table when you're having a bowl or curry laksa at the hawker or something like that. Neither am I one to give in to a sales person who calls out to you to sign up for a bank credit card when you go shopping at the hypermarts. So most of my closest friends that either does MLM or insurance or have anything to sell to me knows I'm a hard nut to crack. I'll only agree to actually buy or sign up for something when I've actually made up my mind on it. No amount of convincing or even free gifts will actually tempt me, which I might say I'm really proud. Ok, I might do it to help a friend but that's for a one time basis.


Back to the promotion package I signed up this week, I thought it's high time I learn to enjoy what I've earned and also to let it be a means of releasing stress. In my earlier blog entry, I was talking about how we've always worked so hard to actually find we have no time to enjoy time with loved ones much less to have ME quality time. So that's why I thought it's a good reward for myself after all these years of work.


It's been a great week so far. Something to look forward to for the coming weeks.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

$$$$$

What would you do if you saw a whole vault of $$?? Would you run screaming into it and start rolling on the floor with the money or would you be one of those with are like the goldfish mouth wide open with amazed till you're loss for words??

Ok. I'll probably can't say I'll go for the first. I thought I would be the latter but in the end it was neither. I had the opportunity to actually check out a place with all these $$ on the table though I did not go screaming like a mad lady, nor did I open my mouth looking like a goldfish. I actually hated the place. It was bloody dusty, it doesn't smell of the usual new $$ smell we get in ang paus or from the ATM. It's a very orderly place but really, it wasn't a pleasant place to be in. Not counting the various cameras watching your every move but I just couldn't stand the smell. Now I know I'm not that crazy about $$ as I think I would be.. Hahahah!!


So, I won't elaborate much here cos I'm not allowed to say where I've been, nor what the place looks like but one thing for sure, it sure was an eye opener.